=burning spirit=

2004-07-04T18:53:00.000+08:00

haha... slacked around the whole day, nothing much to do anyway. as in besides homework... but i didn't feel like doing it so nevermind =). finished reading catch me if you can since i didn't feel like doing my more constructive undone stuff :):). it's such a cool book =). really really cool :).
random rambling. dinner's not ready and i'm hungry :(. hai. and i am damn bored. i'm sick of sitting around slacking but i don't feel like doing anything either. ooh sad. watched a lot of tv today. there was this really sweet guy who liked this girl a lot but she and this other guy loved each other a lot too so he gave them his blessings and was really nice about having to give her up since she finally decided to be with the other guy [apparently she took a terribly long time to decide who she actually liked] :). and he told the guy he would get her back if he bullied her =). so cute :):). and so sweet :). oh have you heard the soya bean milk advertisement on tv. the one with the cool ultra fast untra high running notes in the background. then the beans are rolling about cutely to form cute things =)=). anyway the point is that the cool running notes are so ultra cool and ultra nice and extra extra cool :):). soph noticed it too... we were talking about it that day :P. emm said she didn't see it [she was there when we talked about it]. i think eyeballs won't have seen it cos she doesn't watch tv. ooh how does she survive... i will just DIE without a tv... of course a com is my first choice, but when you have a brother stuck to the com, sometimes it's hard... :P. anyway. i think mable watches things like discovery channel and animal planet and national geo so... haha. anyway it's so ultra cool. emm should take note of adverts, eyeballs should turn on the tv sometimes and mable should watch channel u for a change :). haha. fine. dinner is ready. bye :):).

2004-07-03T18:42:00.000+08:00

last band prac. really nice. all the songs were so nice :). though i was dying after 3 hours but heh. that's not the point. it was so nice and so sweet.
met tse min at the mrt station :). i didn't see her at first :P. then i thought i heard someone calling me so i turned around. and at first i couldn't see anyone i knew so i was going to turn back then she suddenly appeared. :P. got a shock. i think she was standing where i just walked past. oops. i miss all of them... they should all walk around in dhoby ghaut [sp?] mrt so i can meet them :):). especially them :):). hope they come on farewell.
did indiv yesterday... animations is so difficult :P. no as in i'm just thinking of that part... hai. fine so animations is not so difficult. just the terrible part with the ultra high notes. hai. so i spent more than half my indiv on animations :P. rhapsodia is so nice!!!!!! aaahhhh so nice so nice. and so nice to play too. it doesn't go to horrible ranges :P. and it sounds nice and looks nice and is nice so nice so nice :):). was very very tired after indiving... as in not physically. not my lips or anything. i just felt drained. i think it's the straining at the animations high notes part. grace said she could see my brains popping out [or was it the veins... can't remember] :P. anyway it wasn't my eyes cos i'm very sure my eyes were closed cos i like to play with my eyes closed :). you can feel the music so much better with your eyes closed and you just feel so one with the music. fine i sound retarded. but it's really nice to play with your eyes closed. anyway i can't think of anything else that pops out :D. heh. anyway i more or less get the part now. i can play it without sounding too screechy. as in... if i'm not too tired... :P. my everything sounds terrible when i'm tired so forget about playing non screechy high notes... i'll be happy if they even come out :(.
oh i just realised today that mononoke and animations are composed by the same person... no wonder they are both sooooo nice... :):). and they kind of sound same-ish. oops. look at my english... they sound ALIKE. yay. haha.
too bad emm couldn't come today. it was rather fun. and very meaningful. hope you're enjoying yourself at your camp :).
monday is a HOLIDAY!!!!!!! yayyayyayyay. so sick of school. though we've only just started school again a week and 2 days ago... yeah school is sickening. this term seems to be dragging and dragging. how come last term was like flying past... weird. yeah so. we FINALLY have another holiday!! yay :D:D. haha can tell how lazy i am...
anyway we're going out :). phew. after being stuck between home and school for so long... hai. sad. yay holiday :)

2004-06-27T16:15:00.000+08:00

ok fine i have ONE entry cos i copied it into mic word and saved it. date: May 25, 2004 time: 10:32 (pm, i think)
hai damn irritated. phy perf task due tmr and hotmail decides to crash on me now. michelle's going to kill me. hai. and my whole internet connection was screwed just now too. i managed to fix it but i can't do anything about hotmail so.. hai.
my clarinet was so so stuck today. it was stuck all the way through band prac. could see their alarmed looks when they tried to tune me and the note came out piaaaaaakkkkkkk-eeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! was damn gross. and it only decided to be nice and unstuck itself like when we were finishing small world. like THANKS. i mean we so played so many songs after that man... disgusting. and cos i was still trying my best to play as much as i could, i think i destroyed my embouchure. i just totally clamped down on the mouthpiece and bit into my lip with all my might just to make a sound. so obviously my embouchure was screwed. and after band prac when it was unstuck i tried to play with a normal embouchure but never managed it. shit. i hope my embouchure changes back by tmr. irritating.
i want my cadenza cd... was so preoccupied with my retarded embouchure that i forgot to go get it :(. hai. in any case i wouldn't know where to get it from so whatever. and everyone should pay ticket money. like NOW.
AND ALL THE PEOPLE WHO OWE ME PENCILS RETURN THEM NOW. hemhemjashemchemhem. owe me since when? last year isit. >|. qian pencil huan pencil or you die. >|. :D

2004-06-27T16:10:00.000+08:00

yay look! i can post! but my connection is still a bit unstable so... hai. i still cannot do anything sometimes :(. commanders test yesterday. very very very tired. hai. and school started two days earlier than my sister's :(. unfair. school is so irritating. and so boring. i want to go back to japan :(.

2004-05-21T22:19:00.000+08:00

realised jw is actually very nice. and quite cute too :). and realised i miss all her stories about ri. hai. how come i never appreciated her. look at my teachers now. all rattle rattle rattle no break no nice stories. bored to death. and after lessons i just feel like my head's exploding cos i'm trying to remember so many things at once. hai.
watched perfect storm in geog. feel so sadded and loserish. can't believe at obs we panicked whenever we felt the kayak was GOING to capsize. hai. you should have seen the storm in perfect storm. wow.
yeah well obviously i'm actually supposed to be doing stuff... but yeah.
and my typing is VERY bad. i'm out of practice. i just took 5 mins to type that. hai. i need to come online more. i wish i had time :(.
got our progress reports today. rather pleased with myself :). as in i didn't do WELL, but yeah... i improved from last year. all my terrible subjects rose from 50.2, 50.8 etc to 59, 60. hahahahha. and my usual better subjects are even better :). yayyay. but damn pissed at HER man... she just so totally hates me. and i hate her too. so much for trying to like all my teachers. heh.
missed aesthetics on mon cos we didn't know we had our first lesson on mon... hai. hehe. sad. so we went for makeup today. half our batch is in today's class man... 12 people. then we joined them for today, so it was 14 today :P. haha. damn amusing. i do declare that aesthetics is so totally pointless... like who cares how to eat properly. like whatEVER.
i want my cadenza cd :D.

2004-05-15T21:00:00.000+08:00

Hai. shit. i tell you... i could have gotten full marks for my math EOI. The stupid question was so damn misleading. it was like specify the no. of people in each portion or sth [venn diagram or sets or wadeva you call it]. then i didn't know can put like 31-x, 12+x etc. like wth. i actually tried to solve the damn thing to get a NUMBER. i gave up half way cos it was getting so long :P. THEN i didn't even get marks for my effort. WHATEVER. and so i lost a lot of marks [and time] on that question since there was like b and c and d or whatever and obviously i couldn't do them cos i didn't even have a. [but apparently everyone else understood the question perfectly well so. hai]. wth. i could have got full marks lorh. and the stupid physics EOI also. stupid question so damn ambiguous. ok that one a lot of people misunderstood it... but we still didn't get the marks! it's also correct ok... if you think about it the other way. shit. stupid stupid. and another question i lost one mark cos i was too specific o_O. some people wrote very vague stuff and got the full 2 marks :(. but i got A1 anyway. hah. so there. *glares*.
I got 20/21 for my bio prac!!! aaahahahaha. yayz. ok but this one also damn stupid. i think i lost the one mark cos when i put what precautions to take i just listed and didn't explain why so... hai. hehe. sad. i write too much for whatever doesn't need it and write too little for those that need elaboration :P.
world trade game was quite amusing. i was saudi arabia :). rich rich :). hehe. soph emm and mable went today too. then all my sbms got chou against me >|. soph's country [thailand] struck a deal with us and backed out at the last moment >|. ok lah they weren't so bad :D. emm's country [europe] and mable's country [iran] went around stealing everyone else's stuff! as in really. then they will go and put it on their board and pretend it's theirs so they always had a lot of products >|. and the saddest thing was that we didn't know who was doing it until the end of the game when they confessed man... whatEVER. and so they won the game cos they stole so much stuff from everywhere >|. ok they stole from thailand too so i shall not be angry at soph anymore :). actually they stole more from thailand than they stole from us :D. jas chua took a $1000 note from right under soph's nose. hahaha. and we were being the nice country to the poor countries :). we give them free oil :). hehe. and we were japan's major trading partner :). and saudi arabia has WAY too much oil. we were trying to sell all our oil but never managed to... so every round we just got progressively more oily [haha :D]. at the last round we started with more than 20 oils :P. i think 24 :D. [that's why we were giving away oil for free see :) as in besides the fact that we're just too nice...] haha. quite fun :).
oh we went to watch the first half hour of bl finals. attendance was damn funny :). we were not playing, so we couldn't say here. but we were also inside the band room, so we ended up shouting world trade game for ourselves :P. then it was so funny :). soph said world trade game, then i said world trade game, then emm said world trade game, and then the three of us said world trade game together for mable :D. so funny :). then we had to go for world trade game after half an hour so we couldn't watch anymore :(. got semi-scolded for being late cos we were waiting for yiqing :P. oops :D. hehe.
and my clarinet's metal sound it VERY VERY obvious. it was so damn gross i gave up indiving after about 1 hour :(. hai. and my D is a bit stuck. how gross :(. poor aleathea. she's getting more and more sickly :(. OH AND I TELL YOU. the screw came out again. THE SAME ONE. i was like panicking like hell when i saw the screw was missing again. as in i have a screwdriver but what's the use if there's no screw... heh. then i suddenly saw this shiny little thing at the corner of my case :). the screw :). so i put it back :). but it keeps falling out >|. hai. shall have to be more careful in future.
weighed my instru. it's 3 kg. hehe. going to Japan in 17 days. go everyone :).
oh thought i heard the principal talk about our trip to Japan during the sec 4 spm... but maybe i imagined it. heh. why on earth would she talk about it at sec 4 spm... but i heard a lot of 'Japan's and words that sounded like 'band'. heh. dunno. whatever.

2004-05-10T10:44:00.000+08:00

i am bborreeed
wu liao
let me tell you some random crap.
i went to buy dinner yesterday cos my parents were not home and my maid went on leave or whatever. feel so accomplished :). then i happily came back and suddenly realised i didn't buy dinner for my brother! :P. oops. but not my fault. i didn't know he was home. who ask him so pig, hide in his room and sleep. :P. and my mom only told me to buy for my grandmother, my sister and myself. hehe.
Japan trip coming...
hols coming too!!! hehe. yay. finally. but don't think the term passed very slowly.. it thought it was quite fast actually. even faster than term 1.
today is a HOLIDAY! yay. ahahahha. i don't know what to do already :(. hols are nice, but i get bored easily :P. hai. spent half an hour looking for pics to put as my desktop background. hai. weird. feel so free. quite nice also :). nothing to do. lalala. bye everyone. how come diary-x confirmation email takes so long to come. if it were here i would have stuff to do :(.

2004-05-10T09:11:00.000+08:00

hehe. have you all seen... blogspot changed layout or whatever. the login page is quite cute, but i don't like it after logging in :(. hehe. come and look. the last one looked pro-er :P.
going for sb outing later :). don't worry... not blading + cycling again. we're going to watch movie :). and then we're going to meet xinyi & huichong :):). hahahahahhahahahhahahaha...
i want to move to diary-x... can lock entries. shall go and see if it's nice to use. bye everyone.

2004-05-09T17:32:00.000+08:00

hai was dying during bl auds yesterday...
started dying after like one and a half hours... [oops. so sad]. then it was still okay... just kept feeling like i was going to drop dead. after about 2 and a half hours, that's when i sounded really really gross. really. you won't believe it. ok maybe you will :(. kept squeaking and squeaking. then whenever i lost control of my embouchure suddenly [i did that once in a while :(] my note would just sqwak out and go PIAAK. then when i lost control of my air also once in a while, my note would be blasted out and it sounded damn disgusting. then at the not too rare times [would have been nice if they had been rarer] when i accidentally lose control of both at the same time... well you get the idea... it was just disgusting k. heh. then when i was conducting... very sad also k. i was feeling so damn stoned i just went there, ran through the piece and finished. was VERY disgusting too. heh. oh then i could play quite nicely for soph's song since she was right after me. heh. anyway, soon after that, towards the end, i was like playing a few bars, resting a few bars, playing a few bars, resting again etc. sorry :(. was SO glad to hear "last person, hanxin" :P. hai. bl auds is killer.
anyway centuria is nice :) had it stuck in my head the whole day :P
today after ora day, we were so wu liao, we went to soph's house :). hehe. was quite fun... talked a lot of rubbish :). was telling her how jas c got dunked. and how the horrid vending machine ate up my one dollar. hai. and how we bought cookies from HER and didn't save any for her cos we weren't really planning to visit her at that time. heh. thanks for the squid heads :).
happy mother's day :).

2004-05-05T17:32:00.000+08:00

yay. great. hang up on me again. what on earth is everyone's problem. maybe i'm the one with the problem. is it wrong to say what i really feel. am i supposed to say everything you think is so totally cool and wonderful even if i don't mean it. am i supposed to pretend i think exactly like you. hide everything i feel just so you will just stop hanging up on me. what is wrong with having my own opinion even if it differs from yours. and i really tried to say it as nicely as possible. cuz i knew this would happen. i should just hole myself up in my room my whole life and not know a single person in the world. what's the point of having friends when you can't even tell them what you think without being hung up on. what is everyone's problem. what is my problem. i feel like i'm living in a world outside of the world we live in. i just can't communicate with everyone that i thought were my friends anymore.

2004-05-05T16:50:00.000+08:00

ok so i managed to change it. heh. wonder why i'm so free. i'm going to regret this later. too bad.
eyeballs tried to teach me bio yesterday. and i found out that i didn't understand a single term she used. sad. i just learn bio slower than anyone else. don't know why i even take it. but not like i can take lit or his anyway... so. not like i can actually learn geog either. hai. ya so... i think i'm going to fail. yay. maybe it's the disastrous side effects of being taught by ahem ahem in the past so my basics are not good. grahaha. think soph is experiencing it now. have fun. and emm and mable were smart enough to just not take the subject. but like i said, i really really can't take more than one humanities subject. i am already dying with geog. too bad. stuck with bio. hai. whatever.
there was this damn irritating and qian bian woman on the bus yesterday. the bus was quite crowded, so a lot of people were standing. including me. then the person sitting in the seat in front of me got off the bus. then the irritating woman rushed towards the seat and slammed against me in her hurry to get there, and i banged against the seat so i was blocking her way to the seat. then she thought wanted to sit down so she looked damn irritated and made this irritated noise. i didn't sit down and was trying to move out of the way to let her sit there, then she saw i wasn't going to sit and said in this irritated voice let me sit down if you're not sitting in chinese and pushed me away and plonked herself down on the seat. i almost fell cos she pushed me so hard AND i wasn't prepared to be pushed out of the way COS NORMALLY people don't go around pushing other people about. irritating woman. and to think i was trying to move out of the way for her. shouldn't have done that. should have just plopped down on the seat and let her continue standing. irritating pig. wanted to slap her. but heh. whatever.
went to make my passport just now... cos my passport is expiring soon so i have to make another one if i want to go to Japan :P. and apparently i can't leave Singapore without my mom or sth. haha. so. yeah. I looked weird in the photo cos i was smiling kind of lopsidedly and i wasn't really looking at the camera. hai :P. so then now i can go to Japan :) hehe.

2004-05-05T15:54:00.000+08:00